Drifter

I've fallen out of love with San Francisco.  I've been here almost two years and I still don't have anything to hold me here.  Anytime I connect with someone they are out of my life so quickly.  While I like the culture and the things around, the reality of it is that I'm disconnected.  Floating around here.  The people I hang around with feel distant from me emotionally.  The people I am connected with are distant from me physically.  I'm tired of trying to make this work.  I've been thinking about this a lot.  I'm feeling ready to move.  I want to move closer to the East Coast.  Closer to my family and friends.  Luckily that gives me literally the entire United States to choose from... except from Portland and Seattle.  But I hear those are just as overcast as SF so I didn't want to go there anyway.

I don't want to move alone again.  I'm trying to get Nate [and by proxy his girlfriend Bex] on board to move with me.  Then we could do a Marshall/Lily/Ted thing wherever we go.  Which could be great.  And if not, then the obvious choice is D.C..  Aside from half of WM (grad and undergad) being in D.C. still, there's my family, Pete, and Toph.  The transition back while jarring, seems like it would be an alleviation of this constant struggle to find people I connect to.  Not to mention the theater scene out there makes WAY more sense to me than SF's... and I don't know why that is.  So yet another avenue for friendships.  And who knows, maybe Nate and Bex would stay around that area too even if we weren't living together.

I like choosing to be alone.  I hate being forced to be alone.  I just feel.. so disconnected.

Also I miss William.